Coming down off a full weekend here. Tonight I have an extreme sore throat and ear ache, my head feels really congested and I felt like I had a fever earlier. Hopefully this will pass soon, it's messing with my sleep schedule and I have way too much stuff to do to get sick right now. Last week passed quickly and was rather uneventful.
     Secretly, I have started putting Chris to the test and he is failing miserably. My gut feeling was right on Monday. He blew me off and I heard from him late that night, supposedly he fell asleep. Then he got mad that I thought he blew me off and we got in a tiff. I haven't been callling or text messaging him nearly at all, and it's like he hasn't even noticed. He keeps borrowing lunch money from me, and I'm quite sure he will never pay me back for what he's borrowed. He can't give me straight answers, and it's becoming very clear to me, he's just playing games.
     Meanwhile, one week ago I was completely unimpressed with Chuck. Chuck started calling me every night just to talk, and I started to realize he wasn't so bad to hold a conversation with over the phone. He asked my plans for the weekend and Saturday morning I was working, I was supposed to have a date with Chris Saturday afternoon, and Saturday night I was babysitting, so he asked if I would like to come over to his place Friday night and hang out on Sunday. I agreed. I was really excited, that meant a date Friday, Sat and Sunday with 2 different guys. I decided maybe some competition would help me decide.
     I got to Chuck's place directly after work on Friday night. I met him sober for the first time ever. I really, really liked the sober side of him. To my surprise he told me he has never met me sober before either. I suppose that makes sense because everytime we get together it's with our group of friends in the bar or at a party. Why would we be sober? He had his apartment so clean. He had candles lit, it was really cute. We watched a movie and he made me an amazing steak dinner! We talked a lot. We started to watch another movie and got side tracked... Friday was such a great night. I did not want to leave, but I had to work in the morning, and it is almost a one hour drive from his town to my house.
     Saturday I worked and so did Chris. Chris made up some excuse about his daughter being sick and so he could not get together for our supposed date we had planned. I actually was really happy. Saturday night I baby-sat for Nick and Kristy's little boys. My favorite kids in the world. Kristy told me she gave Wes the choice if he wanted his Aunt to babysit or me, and he choose me. That surprised me but I thought it was cute. They were so good I fed them ice cream at the end of the night and loved playing the hero!
     Sunday Chuck asked me ahead of time if I would mind meeting up with him early in the day. I said not at all. So at 8 am I met up with Chuck again. There is a trail that wraps around a pond and cemetery nearby his place so we took a walk on that. That was romantic. Through our week of phone conversations he somehow found out that I like and collect penguins, so he surprised me and had his Step-Mom help him find a penguin figurine that he gave to me. I REALLY thought that was sweet. We watched a movie, and then we ended up spending the entire day in each other's arms. Seriously, it was so incredible. We did a lot of talking, and it was the best! We kept marveling at the chain of events that led us to each other and how if this and this and this, had not happened, we would have never been there in each others arms. It's like all of the crap that happened in between pushed us into where we were. We kept telling each other, "Thanks for happening!" We worked up an appetite and decided to grab a bite to eat. Chuck showed me a back country road that took me straight into Iowa City, and we ate at a Mexican place. It was such a beautiful day and drive through the country, I'm not exaggerating. It was also so very hard to leave Chuck last night and come home. I left feeling a giddy kind of high I haven't felt for a guy in years.
     Have you ever felt like you met your other half?? I never thought that kind of thing really existed I thought that people just find someone and make a choice to be cool with each other all the time, but for the first time in my life I really feel like I found my other half. Suddenly my relationship situation that was so complicated a week ago, seems very clear to me. I'm going to choose the guy who is NOT married, the guy who makes me steak dinners, the guy who secretly likes stuffed animals, the guy who slow dances on the kitchen floor with me, the guy who insists on painting my toe nails, the guy who is content to just hold me in his arms and snuggle for the longest time, the guy who wants a relationship... just to name a few perks.
     Chuck and I talked on the phone for a long time again tonight. We decided we are officially together in a relationship from here on out. He told me he has asked his 'Little Sister' Coralie and our friends Gina and Angie about me several times in the past. He said they already filled him in on my track record for crappy boyfriends, and he said he wants to be the one to break that record. I'm so thankful I wasn't a judgemental snob and decided to give Chuck a chance. I had no idea how super smart he is. I always thought of him as an extreme red neck, and while he does have a country side, (that I secretly like) he also has a side I would have never seen. Turns out the guy is a computer guru. I love how committed and close he is with his family. Etc, etc. He is the best thing to happen to me in a very long time. Who would have ever thought?? Certainly, not I.
     April is going to be a great month, I will get settled in my new apartment and I will get settled in my new relationship. '09 Is going to be a GREAT year, I can feel it. I'm so hopeful for the first time in a very long time.
   So there you have it. To quote John Lennon, "Life is what happens when your busy making plans for something else."

    I can't quite remember where I left off last? I think it was the beginning of last week. Last week flew by and was rather uneventful.
    I randomly heard from Tom after all this time one night last week. In the month and a half since we have last talked, he was laid off from his job. He lost his truck because of not being able to make the payments after he lost his job, and he is moving out of his apartment April 1st because he can't pay the rent. I felt really bad for him, but when I asked him, "So what's next?" He did not seem to have any sort of plan. Instead he was just throwing a big pitty party. "I'm 36 years old and all I know how to do is construction work... etc, etc." I wasn't very sympathetic. Until he gets over his pity party and realizes he is capable of doing other work (maintenance, etc.) he is not going to get very far. On top of that I have a suspicion that he was telling me all of this because I sent him a text after I got my apartment telling him I was getting an apartment the begining of April. I really think he was hinting around for a place to stay. No way! He can't keep going in and out of my life like that. He just doesn't get it.
    Angie broke the news that she is going to move to Georgia to be with Donnie. It's just a matter of time for her to find a job down there, and then she is free to go. I am really, really happy for her. But that is going to be a REALLY hard adjustment for me. I don't think it will fully hit me until after she leaves. I'm gonna be lost. That girl is my Bestie! At least I'll have my apartment to focus on and such. I HATE losing people in my life. *sniffle*
    Thursday night I met up with a handful of my old Aegon co-workers and we had a game and snack night at Annie's place. It was a lot of fun, most of all it was really great to meet up and reconnect with everyone. Although I like my current job so much, I miss how close my co-workers were at Aegon. The people I work with now are sooo snobby I can't stand it!
     It really feels like Chris and I have a long distance relationship, it's such a complicated situation. Not only is he always busy with his family (rightfully, so) but we work really different work shifts. He works maintenance and usually works a 4:00 am to noon shift. We also can't really talk much at work, because we don't want things to look bad. At least for right now. Most of our relationship is over the phone. His apartment is pending and the count down for mine is on, so I keep telling myself if we can make it through this next month we will be smooth sailing. We have already been talking a month now, and it flew by. He does call me a lot around the 3 am hour on his way into work, and I really like that. One night last week we both had a dream about each other on the same night. I dreamed we were in a restaurant and ran into my boss. He dreamed we were in a restaurant, and then it got explicit. That made me laugh at the irony that we both had the same dream, yet the so very different male vs. female differences. Another day last week Chris and I snuck out for lunch together. We did see someone from work while we were there but we shrugged it off and decided people will figure things out eventually and it's really none of their business anyway. I worked a half day today, because I am working this Sat and had to cut the overtime. It is nice to have a lazy day around the house. Chris is supposed to call me and we might catch a movie together, but I have one of those bad feelings in the pit of my stomach that he is going to blow me off and come up with some lame excuse. I'm usually right when I get those feelings. He's been really quiet the past few days and I don't like it. Maybe I need more faith in men? He seems to get really moody. Maybe it's not me it's just his mood swings? Whatever, things will either work between us or they won't. No way to tell until you test it out. I'll be disappointed, but I'll get over it fast. There's always Tall Boy from church, if I can ever manage to get my life right??
     Meanwhile, my weekend came and went with a craze.
     Saturday was a LONG and BORING day. All I wanted to do was take a walk, but it poured down rain all day, so there was no hope for exercise. An old friend of mine from high school, Holly ended up calling me though. We haven't seen each other since just after high school so we had around 7 years to catch up on. We talked for over 2 hours and it was amazing! It was crazy all the roads and directions our lives have taken us on in 7 years, we both reflected on who we used to be and how we are nowhere what we used to think we wanted or were going to be. She is living just outside St. Louis now and I map quested our addresses and we only live 4 hours and 15 minutes apart. We decided a road trip is definitely in order for the near future! That made my day, I thought it was cool.
    Later in the day I got an invite from Coralie to meet up with everyone to celebrate her brother Chuck's birthday. I decided a night out was just what the doctor needed for my at home blues. I threw myself together and met up with Coralie, Chuck, Gina, Coralies boyfriend, and another little sister of Coralie and Chuck's, Nina. I have known Chuck about a year and I have never once met the guy sober. Chuck has been through a lot in the past year though, so everyone was determined to make sure he had the best 34th birthday possible. We started our night at Applebee's and we all had a lot of fun. We all drank a lot there before we even got our food and before we left the place. After we left we went to the bar, and had a grand old time. We continued drinking, I lost count of what I had and how much. Jeff Bruner was playing and I remember by the end of the night I did a blowjob shot with the shot between Chuck's legs and the whole bar cheered. I also remember singing a bunch of old school country songs with Chuck. Chuck and I left for the night and pulled an all nighter...
     Yesterday felt really messed up. A part of me felt bad like I had just cheated on Chris, but on the other hand, I'm sure Chris is still sleeping with his wife, and things are so messed up at this point, does it even matter anymore? Another part of me felt like, if I pretend it didn't happen, then it never happened. Of course that's silly. It turns out Coralie and Gina have been plotting for several months to try to hook Chuck and I up, so they were actually cheering us on. It also turns out, Chuck broke the cardinal rule of a one night stand. He really likes me. That is not suppose to happen, emotions are not suppose to happen with a one night stand. grr. Chuck is a nice enough guy and all, and I really had fun with him, but he is not someone I see myself with. Like I stated earlier I have never once met the guy sober, and he's sort of different. I gotta figure out how to let him down nicely?? On top of that, Gina made us pancakes Sunday morning and took us to my car. Chuck had to pick some laundry up from his parents and he insisted that I come along, and then drive him back to his apartment in Riverside. I made Gina go with me to his parents because that was a little weird. They had 3 dogs that were a great distraction. But, weirder yet, it turns out I know his Step-Mom. His Step-Mom is a lady that goes to my Grandma's church, and she has known me since I was in Kindergarten at least. I'm not sure who felt more awkward, me or her. Turns out she is a pot smoking, beer loving, party girl 6 days a week. It's her little secret. And I'm the drunken whore who slept with her step-son the night before, so I guess that makes us even. I can't cast judgement on her and she can't cast judgement on me. Life has a crazy sense of humor sometimes. I drove Chuck back to his apartment, and he insisted on reenacting the night before. I gave in. My day was shot yesterday.
    So there you have it, everything you never wanted to know. This week is a fresh start. Hopefully things are more normal.

Pics of course!... I think Gina and Coralie have pics that are even more incrimadating! lol.

Me and Coralie.

Chuck and Nina

Chuck wore the birthday tiearra, it was left over from my 24th birthday so I passed it on to him for his 34th, and I got stuck wearing his red neck camo hat.

Um, it's apple juice, really!

Gina, Chuck and Me. Whatever was going on, it was funny??

'Little Sister' as Chuck calls them. Coralie and Nina.

Chuck looks tanked. I was tanked too, but don't look it.

I walked into my bosses office today and said, "I had a thought..."

He responded with, "Oh my gosh! Are you ok? Do you feel light headed? Should I get you an aspirin!?"

And I collapsed into a chair laughing. My boss walks on water. Really.

     Sometimes I feel lost on the weekends. Like when I don't have my job to go to I'm not sure what to do with myself. That's how I felt this weekend. For one thing I'm on such a regular sleep schedule it's irritating on my weekends! I fall asleep ridiculously early, anywhere between 7:30 and 8:30 at night and then like clock work I'm wide awake at 5 am every morning. Even on the weekends. My Dad used to always have that same sleep scheudual and I thought he was crazy. lol. It will help a lot with the days getting longer, and when I get my own place. I mostly go to sleep that early because I am bored and my Grandma drives me CRAZY, and after awhile it's just habit. It will be easier when I am not going to sleep so early out of annoyance. Soon, so very soon.
     Yesterday I got my hair cut. My Aunt Jodi was in rare form. She was cracking me up laughing! I spent my afternoon running errands. I got more stuff packed and more stuff bought for my apartment that I will be needing. (Salt and Pepper shakers, ashtrays, stupid stuff like that, etc. I'll never need to get married because I have everything I could ever need, I got ripped off at that part of life. lol.) I was REALLY bored last night. Did laundry took a bubble bath, just to kill time.
    I woke up with a burst of energy this morning and got a lot of my stuff organized in the packing and cleaning out process. It left me in this weird mood though. I felt really sad and lonely and looking back at a lot of stuff put me in a time warp, and I did not like it one bit! I found a box I had saved every card and letter people have sent me the past 3 years, and instead of making me feel good, it depressed me to look through it all so I threw them away. I decided to get out of the house to pull myself out of the funk.
     It did wonders for me!! I went out for lunch with Christina. We ate at Hacienda, I haven't ate there since before it was flooded, so I was really impressed. I think the building is cleaner now than it ever was before the flood. I've always liked there food, and we won't even mention the famous fish bowl margarita day there a year ago!! lol. Glad it is finally reopened. The one on the east side of the city just isn't the same.
    After lunch I met up with my brother Jeremy and Joni for awhile. I enjoyed visiting with them. My visit was cut short when my Aunt Janet got ahold of me to baby-sit my little cousin Andre. I really didn't want to, but I did.
    I got to give my little cousin credit, he was a really good boy and we had fun playing. But sometimes my Aunt annoys me so much. I could not believe my cousin is 3 and a half and he is still in diapers!!! The kid is speaking in full sentences, he has the book 'Brown bear, brown bear' memorized and he is able to tell me he needs a clean diaper. He even told me, "My Mom changes my diaper better than you!" I really wanted to toss the diaper at the kid and tell him to change it himself, because I'm quite sure he would have been able to. I did not see a potty chair anywhere in site. I'm sorry but I think that is terrible, lazy parenting. If I ever have kids they will be getting a potty chair for their 2nd birthday present! People worry about me, but they have some serious shit of their own they need to get together. *Rolls eyes* I called my Mom to vent after I was done babysitting and she was cracking up laughing! Now I remember why I screen my phone calls when my Aunt Janet calls.
    I solved my dilemma about getting my couch scotch guarded or not... I decided to spend that $50 on a new pair of shoes instead!!  I bought them off the internet today. I can really relate to Carrie in Sex and the City. New shoes cure anything from loneliness, boredom, feeling fat, etc, etc. Cheeper than Prozac! Sometimes I really love my life!
    I'm soooo ready to go back to work tomorrow.

Here it is, my latest shoe addition. It will be a great shoe for work... The pic isn't very big. Oh, well.

    Sat morning. Should I watch Sat morning cartoons or update my blog? Oh the choices! Jane and the Dragon doesn't start until 9 so I think for now I shall update my blog.
    It has been a BUSY and productive week! Since I worked Sunday I took all day Tuesday off work. I signed the lease on my new apartment, paid the deposit and the 1st months rent and I get to move in Sat April 4th! I can't wait!! I contacted the electric and gas company to have everything set up in my name on the 4th. I have had a goal for about 2 years now that when I moved out I was going to buy myself a flatscreen TV to hang on the wall. I did just that! On Tuesday I shelled out more cash (Tuesday was a VERY expensive day for me!) and I bought a 50 inch plasma flatscreen TV! I was really leaning towards LCD since plasmas have more of a glare, but the price was right. Then I arranged with Best Buy to have it delivered and installed the weekend I move in. I also got my car washed and oil changed on Tuesday AND I had a dentist appointment. I was happy I had NO cavities for once in my life. I was EXHAUSTED by the end of Tuesday, lol!
     I still have so much left to do. I have the couch, bed and mattress I want to buy picked out, but I'm waiting to get my tax deduction back before I buy those and have the delivery time arranged. Should I pay $50 extra and get my couch scotch guarded when I buy it?? It's not like I have kids. (But I might in the future.) Does scotch guarding really extend the life of a couch that much? Or by the time a couch gets nasty are you ready for a new one anyway? My Mom never had our couches scotch guarded and they survived 3 kids, except she was buying a new couch about every 6 years. Any opinions on the matter? I need to get down to my insurance company and set up renters insurance. A lot of packing to do of course. At least I have a month.
    I have also been busy comparing prices. Since I'm getting a new bed it will be Queen size so of course my double sized sheets won't fit. I'm such a brat, I'm very picky about my sheets and I HAVE to have 100% cotton sheets with a 300 thread count minimum. Of course, that will cost ya. So I checked Bed Bath and Beyond, Wal-Mart and Target. Wal-Mart had the best prices for the sheet sets, and the dust ruffle Also the best prices on the shower curtain and bath room rugs that I'll need. Target had the best prices on pillows and a desk chair that I need. (I use my Grandma's kitchen chair at my desk currently.) And Bed Bath and Beyond had a pasta keeper, that I couldn't find anywhere else and I have a 20% off coupon for there. And on and on the list goes my friends.
    My Mom called me a few nights ago and she is sooo excited for me! I told her the weekend I move in I will be working the Sunday before that way I can take that Friday off and then have the whole weekend off, plus I will take 2 personal days from work on that Monday and Tuesday so I have more time to focus on settling in and relaxing. My Mom doesn't want to miss out on anything and so she is going to come up and stay with me that whole weekend and help me unpack and just have fun as my side kick. I'm VERY happy about that. I can't think of anyone I would rather have by my side, and I know my Mom will help me a lot if I get overwhelmed or whatever. She is really into decorating, it's her thing, she LOVES it, and I am defiantly my Mother's daughter. We make a great team. My Dad is also going to try to come up that Sat and Sunday, because I still have stuff in storage in Missouri that I will need. My kitchen table, my futon, my microwave, my dishes, a few wall hangings, etc. It will help me a lot not having to start from scratch and buy all that kind of crap.
      Jen stopped over for a little bit the other night to visit. She let me borrow a bunch of plastic storage tubs from when she moved. That will be really helpful!
      Angie and Donnie aren't really making it and I felt REALLY sad for Angie.
       And the closet doors are beginning to bulge a little bit in this thing between Chris and I, although we are still in the closet. He is very excited about my apartment, but I think he is even more excited about my 50 inch plasma tv. lol. I made cookies one night last week and gave him a whole bag at work. He loved it. I love doing things like that. He asked me to write him a note and leave it in his car last week, so I did. I loved his reaction! He was so happy and excited about what the note said. I couldn't believe it! That made me really happy! My boss was teasing me that once I have my own apartment it's going to be my own little 'Love Shack' little does he know, how close to home that hits... I got my cell phone bill from this past month. My bill is $62 dollars a month and that package includes being able to receive unlimited texts and send up to 400 a month. There have only been a few times when I have went over that 400 amount, but not by much. My cell phone bill this month was DOUBLE in price! It was $124 dollars, because I went an additional 498 text over my allowed 400!! I told Chris he better prove to be worth it! We were supposed to get together last night, but we were both SOOOO exhausted, it just didn't work out, and he had to work today anyway.
       I noticed he changed his Myspace to say, 'I am dating a beautiful woman that I love' that really surprised me, because his wife is on his myspace! I asked if he was referring to me on that and he got really shy and said yes. How does his wife not catch on?? Is she that dense? Or has she came to a place of acceptance as to where their marriage is at? I asked him what is going on between them, and he told me all she does is yell at him and it just makes him want to be as far away as possible. From the sounds of it his 1st wife is a bitch and shes crazy. He has a 5 year old daughter, Lexi from his 1st marriage. Lexi is Chris's life. She keeps him really busy, but that also wears him thin because he has to deal with issues from his 1st wife on a weekly basis. Now I'm not the best at math, but according to my calculations if Lexi is from his first marriage and she is only 5, that means he has been married 3 times in the past 5 years! He never talks about his 2nd wife. And his current/3rd wife doesn't sound very compatible with him.
     And then things are interesting at work. There is an older guy we work with, Rick. Rick has an apartment that he rents out for a little extra income each month. Rick has been having problems with his current tenet. He was venting to Chris about it and Chris said if Rick can get the current tenet out of there he would rent the apartment from him as soon as tomorrow. So then I have to listen to the customer service department cluster up in a tight little circle and spekculate, "Well that's kind of weird. Why would Chris move into that small little apartment with his wife? What's going on with his 3rd marriage? Is he moving in there alone??" And I just bury my nose deep into my work and pretend I am oblivious to what they are talking about and what's going on. I haven't asked him about it yet, but I'm willing to bet money he moves in there with out his wife. So if that does happen, Sue in customer service lives right across from this apartment, so you know she will see my car over there, and then the gossip will really begin. 
     Things in life either work or they don't. Test it out and time will tell.

      Ok, so I think that's quite enough drama for one week. I'll see how much more I can stir up next week. Today I'm getting my hair cut and need to deliver some Avon. Probley pack and relax.
      In the midst of my adventures in packing, I came across an old notebook from back in the day when  I was a good kid. (OK so that was only a few years ago.) There were a bunch of quotations in it that I had really liked at that point in my life. I came across one that I think originated from one of my pastors in Missouri, all these years later it still made me think and I kind of feel like it's the point I have been driving home at my self lately. So here you go, some food for thought....

'Over achievers are always motivated by a fear of failure. Under achievers are motivated by a fear of success...'

     I'm walking on Sunshine.... And don't it feel good! Woohoo!!

    My slump that has lasted a handful of months is finally over, and I'm flying high!!

Work was an average week. I'm so thankful for my job, and to be doing something I enjoy.
Monday night Chris and I went out. It was a great night together!!
Tuesday was my Grandma's 79th birthday so she was really happy and everyone was calling her to wish her a happy birthday.
Chris had a really bad day at work Tuesday so I surprised him on Wed morning with a Powerball ticket. I kept giving him hints that had double meanings. First I told him it would be no good after tonight. I told him he might get lucky. I told him sometimes people get together in groups and do it. Etc, etc. It was hilarious! I found out Chris hates surprises, he couldn't take all the guessing and was freaking out. Finally I gave him the ticket and told him it was his ticket out of Hawkeye. He loved the idea! I loved torturing him with the surprise, I'll have to play that game again with him.
Wed night I met up with Christina for some much needed cold beers and hot girl talk. Christina is the best!
Thursday and Friday are sort of a blur.
Yesterday I went to look at an apartment!! I have been researching apartments in this city for a few months, and I found one I really liked. It has 2 bedrooms (Huge sized bedrooms I might add), 1 and a half bathrooms, Ample closet space, a fireplace, a garage a kitchen big enough for a kitchen table, and a balcony!! It is also not very far from where I live now which I like because all my friends and family are on the west side of Cedar rapids, I don't like the east side very much and I still get lost on that side of the city. After I looked at the apartment I looked at furniture. I have enough money to buy a brand new couch, bed, mattress, and a 47' flat screen TV. I found exactly what I was wanting for the prices I was wanting!! 
The only thing that possibly made me happier was when I got the phone call today that I had been approved for the apartment. They told me I have excellent credit so my rent is a lot cheaper than what it could have been, I'm getting a damn good deal on my place. I get to move in the 1st weekend of April and it will be all mine. I can't wait! This is the 1st time I have ever lived totally alone and I'm so ready. I'm taking Tuesday off work since I worked today and signing the lease, paying the deposit, and then it will be set in stone. Everyone is really happy and excited for me. Angie and Chris are arguing over who gets to help me break that apartment in first. Lol. I already know some GOOD times are going to go down in that place!

And so I start a new week. And this next month is going to draaaaag on as I count down to my apartment. I have already started packing. I love moving because everytime I move it helps me clean out so much clutter. So that will be my life the next month. Catch everyone soon!

    Last week went by fast and so did this weekend... So I'm doing the girl thing that I always do when I fall for a new man and a new relationship... I'm giddy, smitten, happy and obsessed. That's been my life the past week except it's all is in the closet, with Chris having a wife and all.
     Come to find out this thing with Chris has been a long time coming, I just never saw it coming. Chris told me he has had a thing for me ever since I started working at Hawkeye. Suddenly it all makes sense. That's why all these months he leaves countless comments on my myspace photos telling me how hot and beautiful I am. That's why he was always asking about Tom and telling me he did not like the sounds of Tom and that I should break up with him.... etc, etc. Now it all comes together for me.
    The text messages are not fading away, and I love the constant attention and affection. He surprised me one day last week. He asked my favorite kind of music and I told him classic rock and country, so when I got to work he had made me 4 cd's and left them at my desk. He put the coolest songs ever on them! Another day he snuck into my car and sprayed his cologne EVERYWHERE in it. That's all I can smell in my car now is his cologne, and I love it!
     Thursday night we met up and spent enough time together to decide we really want to spend more time together and do it all again. He couldn't get together this weekend, but we do have another date planned for tomorrow night.
    I was really surprised (and happy) to discover he wants this to be more than a few hook ups. He told me he wants to meet my friends, and that surprised me. He told me he really wants to get to know everything about me. He keeps saying all these things he wants to do together with me, drink shots and match me shot for shot, etc, etc... He tells me he can't stop thinking about me. I told him I deleted my plenty of fish profile because he is a fish I would like to be swimming with for quite awhile. He was really happy about that and told me the same thing, that he wants me around for quite awhile.
     Next step is I am soooo motivated to get into an apartment and FAST. The dilemma is I live with my grandma and he lives with his wife so we have to get creative about where and when to hook up. It will all work out. This may have been the push I needed to get out of Grandma's, I've been ready for a long time. Just loafing.
   

    In other news I had a 3 day weekend and it was shot. Friday morning I met up with Glenn at the bar and drank into the afternoon. We then decided to go visit an old coworker of ours in the hospital and Glenn convinced me to drive all the way across town, shit faced. That was an adventure. It was quite hilarious actually. I took a long nap on Friday afternoon and got some cleaning done Friday night.
     Sat I did nothing all day. I layed around, ate and watched a bunch of movies.
     Today I went to church. I'm not really sure why, because I don't even remember what they talked about. My mind was a million miles away. And I decided Chris is by far way hotter than Tall Boy. Chris was happy to hear that. Come to find out he had also been nervous the past few weeks about his Tall Boy competition. After church I spent some time with my Aunt Jodi, and then I ran around town running errands. I took my Grandma out for ice cream tonight, because her birthday is Tuesday. She will be 79. I came home and took a bubble bath. And that was my weekend - gone!-

     A lot happens in a few days.

      Last week was a long week at work and it really sucked. We were short handed and it was one problem after another and it felt like we could not keep up. The worse was making all the calls regarding recalled peanut butter products, the list was endless. Also I found myself very frustrated learning the driver's credit line. A  lot of procedures to learn that go with it. Tedious. I made it through.
       So when Angie called me as I was getting off work Friday night asking if I would like to go out for some beers, I was estatic. I rushed home and then met up with Angie, and I got to meet Donnie for the first time. I must say he is a very likeable guy, I was happy for Angie! Foxy and Andy also met up with us. We started out by going to one of the flooded out bars that has reopened. We were not impressed, needless to say we did not stay long. When push came to shove we ended up at our favorite bar for the rest of the night of course, Chuck's. I was really proud of myself because I had went all day Friday and only consumed 300 calories... but then I started drinking. Ugh, don't drink on an empty stomach. Through out the course of the night I'm guessing I had 10 beers, a few rounds of shots and a tequila sunrise or two. But I had FUN.
      Maybe too much fun? I got a little crazy with my phone. Somehow Glenn buddy and I ended up drunk dialing each other and chatting away. I'm quite sure I agreed to meet up with him at the bar Friday morning and drink the day away together, just like the good old days. I haven't seen him in almost a year. I can't think of a better way to spend my Friday the 13th.
      In my drunken stupor somehow I also ended up sending really dirty text messages back and forth with a coworker of mine, Chris. That opened up a can of worms. The problem with that is that Chris is 35 and on the tail end of his 3rd marriage if that tells you anything.
     Sat I sobered up. I met up with my Aunt Jodi at Carlos for lunch and then hung out at her house for awhile in the afternoon. Saturday night I dragged Christina with me to a sex toy party at Gina's. That was a hoot. Later that night, Chris was the one who was drunk and so he continued the dirty messages with me from the night before...
     Sunday morning I went to church. I studied Tall Boy, and I think my imagination went wild. Maybe it wasn't him on the internet. His hair is really dark brown and could even be considered black by matter of opinion. He didn't act like he was placing me up with the internet or anything. He smiled at me waved and said hi, that was about it. I'm going crazy, I can't take progress that moves this slow.
    I left right after church and went to work on Sunday.
     And then this thing between Chris and I, hasn't ended... We were both sober Sunday and continued with the messages. Text turned into dirty voice mails, dirty voice mails turned into dirty photos, etc. 1st I told him that because he is a coworker and because he is married those were two lines I did not want to cross. He is persistent and my will power is growing weak, very weak. I don't want to be a homewrecker and be the straw that breaks the camels back in his marriage, even if they are having problems. However, it's not my problem if his wife isn't meeting his needs. His mind is already made up. I know it's wrong, and suddenly I don't really care. I need a relationship with someone like Tall Boy. However I need some wild, crazy, hot, amazingly good sex with someone like Chris, no commitments, no strings attached. just sex. Apparently he needs it too. Get it while I'm young?? 
     I can't do this whole being single thing anymore. I can tell you that much. I have a handful of bootie calls that I could call at any given time, but this is different. It's the forbidden fruit perhaps??
      I already have decided plenty of fish . com sucks. I'm not finding anyone of interest, besides my false Tall Boy alarm. I chatted with a guy a little bit who was 33, and an electrician, but that went no where fast. What do you say to a total stranger in an email? I got another message from a guy I used to work with at Wal-Mart, jeremy, and I thought that was hilarious. I brought him up to speed on what I'm up to these days and that was about it. Oh and Steve is talking to me again now, and I don't really care. I told him i got back together with my ex-boyfriend for a little while, in between him and now. and he was cool with that. It goes back to what I said a few months ago, it's either no guys or so many at once.
     Work has been entertaining the past two days as Chris and I have to play it cool, so that noone will suspect anything. It would look really bad for him and I. I never helped a guy have an affair before. Does this make me a mistress or a whore?? lol. He is bowling tonight with his bowling league and I promised him one pleasure for every strike he gets. So far he has gotten 8 strikes tonight. I got some debts to pay up on. So I guess you could say my relationship status is back to "It's complicated" in facebook terms... I made lasagna for supper tonight, and I wasn't even hungry so I put the whole thing in the fridge after I cooked it, uneaten.
     That's it for now. I'm merely fighting the fires in my life, by igniting them with other fires. Brilliant I know.

Pics from Friday Night...

Angie and I....

Foxy and Andy...

Group Hug!

Friends and Beer make everything better...

Donnie and Angie...

      So this thing with Tall Boy... just got a little more interesting.

     On a whim Monday night I decided to sign up for plentyoffish.com, it's the latest rage in dating sites and it's completely free. All my friends have been giving great reviews of it. So I set up my profile, and then I did the personality assessment.
    After I finished I started reviewing my matches based on highest compatibility. One profile in particular caught my eye. There was no profile picture, but the screen name was something about Tall Guy... It showed I had an 87% compatibility with this guy. I started reading the profile, and my imagination started running wild. Is it possible I had just stumbled across a profile of Tall Boys?? The physical description matched up, 6'7, brown hair, caucasian, lives in Cedar Rapids, Christian was listed under religion, he is listed as having no children, all of this I know to be true, even though I know so little about Tall Boy. Other details it said he is 27. I imagined Tall Boy to be more around 33, but he easily could be 27, so that doesn't rule the profile out. He says in his profile that he owns his own business... Now I had Tall Boy pictured as a construction worker, and if I know guys like I think I know guys, 9 times out of 10 if they say they 'own their own business' it means they contract out their own construction work. So that fits the puzzle completely. 
     I sent this mysterious guy a message, short a sweet. It shows me that he has read the message but not deleted it, and that he did look at my profile. If it is Tall Boy, I had my picture with everything so he would have recognized me immediately. 2 days later I have received no response yet and I'm freaking out! Is he thinking about replying?? Is it really him or a random stranger? Is he going to wait and say something to me at church? Is he going to have fun with the situation and get to know my church side and my everyday internet side, and then come out of the closet for me? Or worst of all, is he completely freaked out at the coincidence and not interested and blowing me off??   That would be more like my luck.
       What would the chances be of it really being him?? How many white, 6'7, Christian men can there possibly be in this city?? (I don't think there could be many.) And don't forget, we had an 87% compatibility rate. Angie says it's a sign, God is trying to get us together. Isn't this something that only happens in the movies??
     In the meantime until I know how this all turns out, the suspense is killing me. *sigh*