And so, my New Year's Resolution for '09 is.... Tall Boy!!

I just watered all 6 of my houseplants. I told them to drink and be merry because the rest of the world would be drinking with them today... Haha, lol!

I'm a dork. I was so proud of my quick wit I had to blog it on here... K, Seriously I got a lot to get done and do today and tomorrow...

    It's been awhile since I've blogged. Well, awhile by my standards anyhow. I've had a lot to say, I've just been keeping busy and on my toes. Today is my Friday and I am just settling in at home after catching a few cocktails (Bloody Mary's and beer) tonight with Angie and KP Smalls. I've got a slight buzz going, so watch out, alch-ie-hol is my truth serum.
      Last week flew by. They had me working will call all of last week and this week. There were pros and cons to that. I put in a handful of ten hour days. I'm excited about the over time!! I am however annoyed with my coworkers. I hate how they always volunteer me to stay and work until 6 for them, when I have already been there since 7:30. It's not my problem their husband forgot to pick up their kid. Tell him to turn around and go back for the kid. They just assume that just because I don't have a family or a life, that I can stay. (That is true.) But they are just so rude about it. What if I actually did have plans or a life? *rolls eyes*
     It's no big deal but I have been so irritable lately. Anything and everything has been pissing me off and making my temper flair. Normally I am so easy going. I haven't had mood swings like this since I was about 16. It's crazy.
      Christmas went by really fast. My parents got into town on Christmas eve, and as always I was very happy to see them! I got off work on Christmas eve and headed over to my Grandpa and Grandma's. We all had pizza and a lot of family was there. My uncle Jan was dressed as Santa and he has a real big white beard, he had just got done playing Santa for some little kids and he was all wound up, it was hilarious. We took turns sitting on his lap and taking pictures.
     Christmas was cool. We spent the day with my Mom's side of the family as usual. We went over to my Aunt Jodi's for Christmas. My great grandma passed away in April of 2007. For some random reason my Grandma let me wear my great grandmas wedding and engagement ring all day. It was so beautiful, I could not stop staring at my hand. I almost cried when I had to give it back to my grandma at the end of the day. Then she even had the nerve to say to me, "It's a little bit big on my finger." I was like, "Really? It fits my finger perfect!" What a tease. In some ways I would have rather just not worn the ring all day and had it toy with me. I may never have an engagement or wedding ring of my own, why can't I have my great grandmothers to enjoy?
     Speaking of rings, my brother Jeremy got Joni a ring for Christmas. I think it was just a ring and not an engagement ring, because I haven't heard any talk of engagement but the ring is amazing! It had a top and bottom row of white diamonds. 3 middle rows of yellow diamonds also called 'chocolate' diamonds, and a huge aquamarine stone in the middle and a white gold band. My brother said it was by a french designer. I was impressed, I never knew he was such the romantic. I knew he was getting her the ring though because he called me a few weeks ago to see if I knew her ring size since I sell her avon, and he was really nervous. I was excited to be in the know.
      I got a  lot of money, and jewelry for Christmas. I got two new tops that I really like. I got some movies I had been wanting (Sex and the City, and Mamma Mia) a book I'm excited to read called The Last Lecture, a photo album that my mom had made for me and my personal favorite, a Guess purse and a Fossil watch from Jeremy and Joni. (Joni picked them out of course. lol.) I don't own very many designer labels so I am always very excited about the few that I have.
     Friday I worked all day. After work my family got together at Jeremy and Joni's house. Joni loves to cook and she has a huge bar in her basement so we all ate and drank to our hearts content. It was a very fun night.
    Sat was the only day my Mom could find when all three of us kids were off work, so we had Christmas with our immediate family on Sat here at me and my Grandma's house. I thought it was funny because at one point my mom looked over and I was flipping my brother Byron off. My Mom chewed me out and I was like, "But Mom do you know why I flipped him off..." and I told her what my brother had said to me and my Mom said to me, "Well good for you. Flip him off again for me, he's such an ass!" lol. I love my family.
       Sunday my parents went home and I worked all day. then I met up with ang and we watched a movie.
      I have been very bummed out, and frustrated with Tom. It has been over a week since I have seen him. Everything was so great, and then last week he was working crazy hours, and so was I, and then he was with his family in Waterloo for the holiday and I was wrapped up with mine. He told me he gets depressed at Christmas too, but that is no excuse. This week he has also been busy working. A part of me should be glad to see that he is being a man and rising up to responsibility and trying to get out of his financial mess, but another part of me is really pissed off. I feel like I am not important and not a priority. He was able to make time for his guy buddies a few times last week. I haven't even had a chance to give him his Christmas present yet, and I know he did not get anything for me. I don't even know if I will get a New years kiss from him?  I just wish I could depend on him instead of us being so day to day and week to week. I have been crying a lot when I am alone, because I can't bear being alone anymore in my life. Then I just sleep a lot, because it is easier than thinking about it or watching the clock.
     So I get an extra day off this week since I worked Sunday. Instead of taking Friday I wanted New Year's Eve off, and my boss approved it. We are closed on New Years day, so I don't have to go back to work until Friday, and then have a weekend again, cool!
    I have a lot to get done in the next two days. Laundry, cleaning, bank, grocery run, pay some bills, a few stores to stop at. Just to name a few. My brother Byron is having a new year's kegger at his house tomorrow night, and I am sooo excited. Last year I had to miss it because I was wasting my life away to assinied wal-mart. This year I have nothing stopping me. I'm going to get together with Joni tomorrow afternoon and we are going to cook a bunch of food for the party. I am really proud of myself because through work I was able to get 10 pounds of meatballs, 10 pounds of popcorn chix, 8 pounds of chilli, 6 pounds of sloppy joe beef, and a gallon of bbq sauce for only $75! One of the perks that goes with working for a food service distribution. What a bargain! Tom tells me I am amazing with money, he is going to give me 5 dollars and watch me return with a pallet of groceries and change to spare. That made me proud too.
   So thats a wrap for now. I am really sleepy and going to head into dreamland.

Until next year, Auld Lang Syne, my Friends!!! (Whatever the hell that means anyway?)

     This week has been amazing. I feel blissful.
      Monday night I was talking with Tom on the phone after I got off work. He was in a fowl mood and I was in a sad mood. When those two worlds combine, it makes a yucky combination. We ended up getting into a tiff over the phone over something he said that offended me and I was hurt. We decided to get over it and I headed to his place for one of our movie nights. We watched the movie Bad Santa.
      Not too long after the movie, I ended up having a melt down. I started crying and said I should have never came over that night because I was feeling sad anyway, and Tom was in such a pissy mood. I told him whenever I needed him the most he is always emotionally unavailable. He told me his same lines again and again, that we are just kidding ourselves, and that I deserve someone better than him. All I could really say was that, he was all that I really wanted, didn't that count for anything? I cried and confessed to him how sick of being alone I am, I told him on the nights I'm not with him I go to sleep at 8:30 or 9 at night, because the nights are so long and lonely, my life is at a stand still. He said that he hates being alone too, but he is too afraid of getting hurt again the way he was with his ex. I corrected him that life is all about choices and he needs to choose to move on. I told him he is taking the easy way out by closing everything out of his life, and he needs to be a man. He told me he is such an asshole, and I asked him why he couldn't see himself the way I see him? He told me I really don't know him at all and he is far unworthy of recieving any kind of love. I told him he diddn't get it, that's what love is, something so great that we don't deserve and can't earn. I told him he knows me far better than anyone else. I told him I believed in him, even if nobody else did and I always had, and that people change. I asked him why couldn't he believe that he has the potential for change, even if he may have been an asshole earlier in his life? I asked him why he couldn't want something bad enough for himself, to stand up for it? I told him he deserves better for himself than what he is allowing himself to have and enjoy in life. I told him I was never going to change his mind, so he was right I should just walk away and not waste my time. It is his choice if he wants to stay where he's at. He told me he is my friend and will always be there for me, and I am one of the sweetest people he knows, but hes just not good enough for me, he has to be alone, and he is unconnected with his emotions. I cried a little harder and told him those are the emptiest words I have ever heard. I told him every guy who has ever hurt me has used phrases similar to those. Why should I believe that when none of the others guys meant what they said? I told him life is cruel and unfair and he may say all that now, but in two years he would be the one with someone prettier than me, someone smarter, someone thinner, someone with quicker wit, someone more experienced, someone richer, etc, etc, and he would be so in love. And in two years I'm willing to bet money I will be the one who is still alone and searching, hearing those haunting lines over and over again from relationship after relationship. I had noting left to say after that and neither did Tom. I drove away in tears.
     I was surprised when Tom called me the next morning as I was getting ready for work, which is a part of our normal morning routine. I was still feeling sad and hurt, so I really did not have much to say to him and I kept myself a bit short. He just called to talk. I went to work and through out the day the weather started getting nasty. Tom sent me several text messages offering to come and pick me up from work if the roads got too bad. I was shocked he would offer to do that. I work 30 miles away, so that would have been 60 miles out of Tom's way! I could not see having him risk the roads on account of me so I braved it, and I drove home. He wanted to know that I got home safetly so I did call him to let him know that I was home from work safe. I started to cut him off and I said, "I gotta go shovel..." to which he said, "No you don't!" I was like "What?" He said, "I'm coming over I'm going to shovel for you and spend the evening with you and your Grandma. The last thing I want is to be alone in my apartment tonight." I was amazed and excited. I cooked a hot meal for Tom while he shoveled for Grandma and I, and then the three of us watched a movie. It was a VERY good night. My heart was softened. After Tom got home we stayed up late texting each other. He randomly told me that he felt such a good feeling that night that he had not felt in years. He told me many other things along those lines too. Did he think about the things I told him the night before?? Is it possible that my prayers for Tom are slowly being answered?? I had thought God doesn't care about me or what I want anymore?
     Wed my normal 25 minute drive to work took me an hour and ten minutes, that sucked. lol. Tom continued to surprise me on Wed when he sent me a handful of text messages, randomly saying things like... "You are such a great friend... I have a lot of respect for you... You are awesome... You are beautiful inside and out..." (No I diddn't memorize them or anything like that!) I was touched, to say the least.
      Thursday I did will call all day at work, and it went smoother than the week before, thankfully. Thursday night I went over to Tom's. Ate supper and watched a few movies. It was some where around 10 pm and we could hear sleet hitting his windows. They were calling for a bad winter storm but I thought it was all hype. My car was already covered in a sheet of ice, so I decided instead of driving all the way across town to get home, to just stay with Tom for the night and figure out what to do in the morning. When Tom and I woke up in the morning things were even worse. We got around 6 inches of snow with the ice under it, and the roads weren't plowed very well. Tom went out to heat up my car and scrape it for me, and he came back in and said he would drive me home in his truck and he did not want me driving anywhere. He then parked my car in his garage for the day, and I thought that was really sweet and he drove me home in his truck. Even his 4 wheel drive was having issues in a few places. I called into work, and they were super nice about it, although I felt a little bad about it. So yesterday I had a snow day and it gave me a great chance to relax around the house and catch up on things like laundry. Tom picked me up on his way home from work. He surprised me and took me out to eat at Red Lobster last night. We had a blast! We watched more movies at his place last night and it made for a very short night. He woke me up this morning, I went home and he went to work.
     Today I worked on Avon and more things around the house. I stocked up on groceries and am watching yet another winter storm blowing around. I'm going to take a bubble bath soon and sip on a few beers. Tom is visiting one of his friends for a few hours who is house bound after having surgery. He is going to pick me up a little bit later and we will hang out again tonight.
     So yeah, my spirits are high this week. I feel like Tom and I have finally jumped some major hurdles. However I'm so used to Tom being so on again off again, that I have myself completely prepared for him to go through the backing out routine in another week or two. For now I'm just enjoying every moment of time together at the fullest and not thinking about what we are or what we aren't. I simply know I'm happy when I'm around him.
    With that, here comes Christmas week. Bring it on!!

       My weekend is shot. The few hours of freedom I have had this weekend have been enjoyable I must say.
       Work was long but I am PHSYCED, I will have around 8 hours of overtime for last week. Sometimes I'm bored when I'm not at work also. Friday was a crappy day at work. It was my first day in will call all alone and I was freaking out. the computer systems were freezing up, the pickers were running behind, and that put my pick cycles behind, I couldn't even print invoices for the customers until the pickers released all the orders in the route. And customers were not patient. It was so frustrating! I almost cried at one point, but I made it through and that is the best way to learn, under pressure. On my way home from work Friday night I stopped by the store and picked up a case of beer and twizzlers. Friday night I unwinded with many beers and a dinner of twizzlers. That was a stress reliever. I worked will call again yesterday and to my relief it went much smoother, mostly because I knew the system that much better than I had starting out on Friday. It looks like they will be rotating about 5 of us in customer service around that department for the next few months. That is fine by me. One day a week won't be too bad and will give me some variety. I just have to smooth out the systems I'm learning.
       Last night was a blast. Gina had a party at her place and Angie came up with the idea to wear ugly sweaters and turn it into an Ugly Sweater Christmas party. So Angie and I made a trip to Goodwill and found some nasty taste of sweaters. I got mine for only $3.88 (And it is going back to Goodwill. lol!) I took it home and showed my Grandma, and she said, "That is a really nice sweater!" Grandma acted offended when I told her it was for an ugly sweater party, I guess that means it passed the test. If Grandma thought it was a nice sweater, you know it was ugly! Anyway Tom met up with me and we headed to the party. It was Gina, Angie, Kelsey, Coralie and her boyfriend Mike, some girl named Pam and Tom and I. Turns out Angie and I were the only ones who wore ugly sweaters but it was still a lot of fun. Kelsey had to top us and showed us that while her sweater wasn't ugly, it did have cum stains on it. That was quite hilarious! We ate and drank, and I thought we would all play cards or something but instead it seemed like all we did the whole night was talk about sex and everyone told different tales they had that were quite hilarious. Tom was the life of the party, he had everyone in stitches and he found my friends equally as hilarious. Afterwards, Tom and I left and all that talk had us quite excited. We headed back to his place and I gave Tom the honors of driving my car, because I had drank too much...and there were other benefits for him. We relieved our excitement from the night full of talk, and watched a movie and we both fell asleep. the night was a blast! Angie and I are trying to cook up ideas for a white elephant gift party next... Everyone look out!
      I slept until 8 this morning. That felt great. It was my only morning this week to sleep in. I spent some time helping my Aunt Jodi with her computer. I'm like her help desk, internet support team. I swear, it's funny. She had her house all decorated for Christmas. that had me very excited. The weather is AWESOME right now. All of our snow melted over night and it is still warmish. However we have a whole new batch of COLD temps, freezing rain and snow moving in for about three days this week, so this is merely the calm before the storm. I'm just chilling right now and cleaning. After Tom gets off work I will head over to his place for the evening. Movies just seem to be our thing. That's it for now.

Angie and I in Our UGLY Sweaters...

Tom and I...

Kelsey, Me and Angie...

I got Tom a Christmas Tie from the dollar store and he was attempting to put it on.

Coralie and Mike

Kelsey and Gina....
The Antlers really put an emphasis on Kelsey's already dramatic stories.

    Sliding through the week here. For a long week it is going by fast. Today is the halfway mark. Uneventful. I am working Sat and will have 6 hours of over time for the week. I am VERY happy about that!
     I'm multi tasking at work and it makes for a crazy week. Still training as a fill in for will call. The phones have been very slow the past two weeks, but we have had plenty of projects to keep us busy.
     Yesterday there was an ice storm and I was very nervous driving into work, but I took it very slow and made it safetly, 10 minutes late. We lucked out because we were suppose to get 6 inches of snow and it skipped over us. It could have been worse. At least it gives everything an authentic Christmas feel around these parts. Tom has me call him when I get to work so he knows I made it safe, and I find humor in the fact that meanwhile Grandma could care less where I am or when. Tom calls me 'Slippery' that also makes me laugh because it has nothing to do with the winter weather. *winks* 
     Today was chaos at work. Tomorrow we are having a food day for another office birthday. It seems like that is all we do around that place is eat, I suppose we are a foodservices distribution center after all. lol.
      I got my camera in the mail yesterday, and I was pshyched! I took it over to Tom's and we played around with it. We also watched the Breakfast Club a movie that is one of my all time favorites, and a well loved movie from Tom's past as well. We laughed that the movie came out in 1985, when I was 2 years old, and Tom was 13 years old. I never think about our age difference of 11 years except in situations like that. Funny.

Anyway, I thought these pictures were cute...

     My week went by fast. Same old.
     Wed night we had a big work dinner party at a nice sports bar. One of the brokers our company does business with did it for us, to thank us for doing business with them. It was a fun time. Super cool deal. Free beers and lots of good mexican food and appetizers. I did not stay very long though as I still don't feel a part of my coworkers cliques. Such is life. I am VERY excited for my companies winter party in January. (The owners of my company are Jewish so it is just a general 'winter party', rather than Christmas.)
      Thursday night I hung out with Tom. Faithful and true. Thursday night was also my Friday night, since I worked Sunday I got a 3 day weekend this week, woohoo!
      Friday I got a lot accomplished! Grandma and I made breakfast together on Friday morning. That was entertaining. Good company for Grandma though. I had a HUGE avon order and I got all of it invoiced and delivered. I finished all my Christmas shopping and got all of my Christmas presents wrapped. It took me 3 and a half hours. My day was shot. And I wrap presents about as well as I fold clothes. (That's not saying much!) Next year I'm going to hire an elf. Anyway, I was quite proud of myself. I added up that I spent a total of $350 on all of my Christmas shopping combined. I had 14 people on my list and that averaged out to $25 a person. On top of that I got a LOT of sales on my Christmas shopping. I added up what I saved in sales, and I saved a total of $140 on my Christmas shopping. I think I was able to stretch my dollars quite far. I'm kicking butt at this game! Friday night I met up with Kelsey and Adam at Perkins. Had a fun time.
     Saturday morning I met up with Tom, Angie, Kelsey, Adam and KP Smalls for breakfast at Chuck N Dales. We all had a lot of fun. We were there forever. After breakfast everyone went their sperate ways, and Tom and I palled around all day. We wondered around Target just for something to do, and took a joy ride in the snow, we played in the Dollar Store and Tom went with me when I got my hair cut. We saw a really skinny Santa Claus and were laughing at him and I told Tom he's a skinny santa because of the economy. We ended up back at his place watching movies and napping.
     We split up last night and did our own thing. Tom met up with his guy buddies in Cedar Falls and they sang kariokee. I met up with Angie and we went to a Saturday night church service. Angie whispered something to me, and I accidently said, "Hell yeah!" really excited in church in reply to angie. It was embarrassing, but very funny. After that we went out to eat for Mexican and met up with KP Smalls and Heidi. Then we all went to the casino, and it was a very fun night. Kelsey and Adam were wondering around there with some of Kelsey's friends. We liked that you can still smoke in the casino, unlike the bars. A really good band was playing a lot of country songs and the dance floor was full. We hit the slot machines. We did a penny one first. I played a $20 bill for a very long time on it. At one point I screamed because I had 3 red 7's and I thought I won something really big. I only won $5.00. lol. I lost my $20. We then did the quarter machines and I was on my last spin of another $20 and I won $40.25. So basically I won all my money back, plus a quarter. I was going to stop there but after awhile I did spend $20 more in another quarter slot and lost it, so over all I lost $19.75 not bad for a nights entertainment. Us girls all stayed a very long time and had a blast!! I was in a slump for a few months and now I'm ready to play again.
     I got home a little before 2 am, just as Tom was driving back. We talked for a long time and we both had so much fun. He said next time he wants to take me with him to sing kariokee because his friends are so funny and I am such a fun person he knows I will have so much fun. I told him we need to do the casino together too sometime and hit the dance floor with the band, lounge around the bar, etc,etc. He said he would love to!
     Today has been shot. I slept in well past 8. I wasted 2 hours on my computer. It was 11 before I even showered. My phone rang off the hook for over an hour. I'm not feeling the greatest. I have been fighting this same cold for just over 3 weeks now. Tom is trying to get stubborn me to go to the doctor for it. I might try to get to a clinic one night this week if it still hangs on. Tom has been sick too and they gave him antibiotics, so we are probley passing the same stuff back and forth. He's right. I should just go and get better sooner. I went to visit my Grandpa and Grandma and stayed all afternoon, but they did take me out to eat at the steakhouse. That was a fun surprise. I'm resting up now. Tom is going to call me soon, as soon as his football game is done and we are going to watch the Step Brothers movie. I have been telling him how funny it is...

     And then I'm off into a new week. I hate to wrap up the weekends.

Girls night to the Casino...

That's how we roll!

My 3 7's...

I'm proud. I contributed to Cyber Monday for the first time ever this year. I am now the proud owner of this camera. I got it for $30 cheaper than it would have cost in the store, with free shipping and a free 2 Gig SD card included, and I did not have to fight stupid people in a store. Woohoo! Happy Birthday to me! This is what I bought with my birthday money. All of this for $169.00, plus I bought The Breakfast Club dvd since it is one of my favorite movies and I can't seem to find it anywhere. I'm going to give my old clunky 4 MP camera to my brother Byron. This camera is on backorder, so I also just have to wait paitcentley for a few weeks.

Nikon - Coolpix 10.0MP Digital Camera - Plum

Model: S550 | SKU: 8740348

5x optical/4x digital/20x total zoom; 2.5" TFT-LCD monitor; VR image stabilization; movie mode